One of my Songs: Bitter

Bitter, feels so good and yet tastes so, Bitter.
Swallowing down your unhappiness
Living today with all of your regrets
Oh, so bitter.


Oh so Sour, It's your last hour
Lived too long Living in your misery
You're Bitter, way too sour
Never Smiling
Oh So Sour!


Living afraid all the day!
Trying to take back all the mistakes that you've made.
Laughing, I know you're faking it!
I see the hate that fills you in your eyes.


Faking, oh you make me believe
Sunshine on my face is no fantasy.
Today I might survive all the pain.
But you're faking


Oh so Sour, maybe my last Hour.
I've lived too long living in your misery.
Cause you're bitter, way too sour
Always hated me
Oh so Sour!


Living afraid everyday!
Trying to run from the pain of yesterday
Shaking, hating what I have to do!
Knowing I can'tlive while I'm near you...


Bitter, like a lemon on my tongue, so bitter
Draining away the joy life has to share
Waling slower, weighed down in your emptyness...
Oh
So
Bitter.....










this is about abuse, whether it be in a dating relationship, family relationship or something else. I wrote this from reading biographies, blogs and hearing stories about abuse, not from my own life, I'm very blessed to have a great family and great relationships.

SORRY!

It's been crazy chaotic here on planet Me! I have some new stuff that I'm gonna post soon but if you can keep on forwarding this link I'd really appreciate it :) :)
TTFN!
with love, your chaotic artist :) <3

FEAR

Of losing all that you have had so far

Of gaining back all the hatred you felt

Of the unknown

Of never being loved

FEAR

Of losing what you love

Of not knowing who you'll become

Of forgetting why you live like this

Of living the way you want to live

FEAR

Of past regrets

Of making mistakes

Of being the odd man out

Of not being good enough.

Saviour > FEAR

Does Anyone Else Think This Way?

I think in colors, emotions and ideas. Bitter for me is separated into 3 different sections, Good Bitter like Coffee, Bad Bitter like Lemons, and Sour like Sour Patch Kids candy.
Good Bitter is like a velvety black-brown with orange and turquoise spikes through it.
Bad Bitter is a neon green circle with yellow and brown darts coming and pricking your tongue.
Sour is very sketchy a fast circles in black and bright blue and orange and pink then it smooths into waves that tickle your tastebuds.
For most people when I try to describe this they don't always get it and I end up sounding like some babbling lunatic. But this makes more sense to me than a lot of explinations.

Happy Days

Come and gone so fast,
Never really seem to last.
These Happy days I dreamed in nights past
Come and gone like a river full blast.

Gone were those happy days.

Come again, sing soft my heart
Sing your melody strong.
Come and bind your wounds with words
And heal your hurting self.

Come again shall the happy days.

Come in and out with no why or wherefore
Always so different than any to come before
For every day a song that opens a new door
Come in and bring with you one happy day or more.

Sing in The Rain

Even though it's pouring down
Even though it feels like the world is crashing down


Just stop and sing in the rain, let the raindrops wash your fears away
Just stop and stare at the rain, let your tears be brushed away


Don't let the hate of being alone make you keep your eyes down on the ground
Don't let your heart fail you just because you feel like the world has left you alone


Just stop and breathe in the rain, let the thunder roll away the pain
Just stop and scream in the rain, let the lightning burn the hate away


Forget the past and all that you've done
Forget the lies and live your life for one


Just stop and live for the rain, let your heart heal the bruises
Just wait for the storm to stop, let the tidal wave wash over the rest of the world.

I think the comments dissapeared...

Some of you all commented on my posts, I think I accidentally deleted them.... LOL. So if you want me to post them again, just re-write the comment on whatever it was and I'll be sure to post it with a really big apology XD This is what happens when you deprive me of sleep haha :) Oh well, I'll just get some extra strong coffee :) ah, sweet lifeblood, mine Achilles heel :) Or rather Achilles tastebuds...